Wednesday, October 09, 2013

The Gravity of Gravity


Last night, I went to see Gravity, a film by Alfonso Cuarón .  He directed Children of Men, which is a movie I am proud to own and blew me away when I first saw it.  It felt like a master class in filmmaking because of what it accomplished in single takes and the story was so fresh, new and frightening.  But, nothing can really prepare you for Gravity.  It is an experience unlike any other one I have had in a movie theater.

A lot has been written about how long it took to make and the technology designed and implemented to finish it.  What Cuarón accomplished is nothing short of breathtaking.  The film begins with a single shot that lasts for maybe twenty minutes.  There are no cuts and its meandering pace sets the film up beautifully.  Even more, because the scene is so long and there is so much to take in visually, it immerses you in the space of space.  It feels like you are really there with these astronauts because you have the opportunity to take it in as if you were out there with them.  You can compare it to visiting a scenic expanse of land.  When you get there, you are in awe.  You breathe and look all around your surroundings and you have the time to do so. You want to interact with those surroundings, have it absorb you and become one with it.  The opening shots of Gravity accomplish that same feeling except it is a place very, very few of us will ever see.  We are privileged to be there for 90 intense minutes where 3D is not used as a gimmick.  It is used to allow you to feel what it might be like to spin, dive and drop out of control in space.

Gravity also manages to make you feel very, very scared.  It constantly teases you by showing Earth from so far away, yet you can't get back to it.  In this film, outer space itself is a horrifying place all on  its own.  You don't need aliens or black-clad enemies to accomplish a sense of dread and doom.  Just being alone in a place that is unforgiving and impossible to live in without technology is enough to give you nightmares if you really think about it.  There is a line, where Ryan, Sandra Bullock's character, tells Kowalski (Clooney) that the silence of space is her favorite part of it.  Yet, as she delivers that line, there really isn't all that much silence as Earth is constantly communicating with them via radio.  That silence, or void, doesn't become so ironic and damning until shit falls apart and that happens very quickly.  What Ryan thought she loved so much becomes terrifying and crippling.

The very concept of being alone is brought to new levels as well.  We have all been alone, obviously. But, being utterly alone in space, thousands and thousands of miles from this orb we live on, is profound.  There is no safe place you can go.  In our lives, we have people and places we can go to for comfort.  We can hug someone or cry on their shoulder.  We have oases to make us feel better about things.  In Gravity, that option doesn't exist.  Instead, there are only things that can physically hurt you or you are left to your own devices to mentally hurt yourself and give in to the concept of death.  The imagined "alone" in Gravity is one of the most terrifying aspects of it, yet it is something (thankfully) many of us will never feel.  Our fears of being alone, living alone and dying alone are exploited in such a visceral manner, you almost want to grab someone after the movie is over and say, "I am here!  And, so are you!  Let's make the most of this shit simply because we are not fucking alone."  That is something I have never felt after seeing a movie because there has never been a film like this one.

Sunday, October 06, 2013

Cats, Pirates and Ponds, Pirates, Ponds and Cats, Ponds, Pirates, and Cats

Pirates



To begin, I must state how happy I am for my hometown Pittsburgh Pirates.  I never left you and followed you even through the worst of years.  I became a Yankee fan while out here, switched divisions and all.  My grandmother was pretty upset when I told her that after only living in the city for a year.  But, grams, I pleaded, possibly over Thanksgiving dinner, the 98' Yankees were an incredible team.  I lived with Carlos then and he was born and raised a Yankee fan and to watch games with him, to see young Mo on our TV that summer was priceless.  Amazing, actually.  See, my grandma would watch Pirates games in the evenings with a meal she had cooked for herself and sip one Iron City beer throughout nine innings.  It was beautiful and her devotion to that team was one never fleeting.  Every fucking night in the summer, there she was: IC Light/dinner/talking to the TV.  I'll never forget that about her and I know, good bless her soul that made it 94 years, that she would be so proud right now.  Yet, she'd be a realist and know that 9 innings of ball is a lot of ball and you can't get too excited about anything until they really win it all.  (Photo above is courtesy of Lee Mazzola and Harvey Hawkens Ehrbar)


Cats



Kumo and Apache are getting along pretty well.  Sadly, the only chance I get to take a picture is when they aren't.  The one above is a rarity.  Apache is 6 months old and 98 percent grey.  His nose, which I'm obsessed with, is totally grey.  He is named Apache in homage to Commanche, the best cat I have ever owned, pure black, and was a soul who could read into everything.  His primary motive in life was to provide comfort.  Kumo, my 9-year-old boy has been taking it pretty well.  He is meowing and following me around less.  He is cool with the little guy until he wants to play.  Then, Apache gets defensive and hisses, growls, etc.  Yet, he is growing and sitting at the window as I type staring at busy Washington Avenue, amazed by it all.  He is taking big kitty strides.  Kumo, on the other hand, needs to regress.


Ponds



Today's ride, a 54-miler, took me to Forest Park, Cunningham Park, Alley Pond Park and then out to Port Washington in Long Island.  It was a great ride at points.  The above photo is from Cunningham Park which connects to Alley Pond Park.  Gorgeous urban, tree-lined trails abounded in both, yet neither are that long.  My riding partner, Joe, told me that some of the oldest trees in NYC exist in these two parks.  All of those parks in the city are awesome to ride, especially if the weather was as shitty as today (so few pedestrians).  It began with a mist  and then a drizzle and then it was just......moist?  Took a smoke break (stupid, I know) about 12-14 miles in and got munched by mosquitos.  There were dozens of trails to veer off on, but we decided to stick to our plan.  Make it to Port Washington.  So, on we rode on Northern Boulevard, which is hairy as all hell, lots of fast-moving traffic, but hills to die for.  At least going down them were to die for.  Climbing them, not so much.  Then you are in Nassau County.  It happens quickly, actually and it is a time when you realize how fucking packed in we are in so little space.  Manhassett is next, which has an old art deco theater I wish I snapped a shot of, but then that would have required stopping and that would have sucked.  Finally, after dips and curves and some more hills you arrive in Port Washington.  It is a quaint, little town and we sat and talked about Sandy.  Had she ruined it?  We looked around at the grass and lack of water damage.  We assumed she hadn't.



And, so another weekend rolled by.  Other good stuff happened...got to see some really old, good friends uptown, got news an old friend got a new job doing what she would (really) love and is getting out of a shitty work environment, and I know I have to listen to more of The Fall.




Friday, October 04, 2013

Heavy Rotation 10-4-13



Earl Sweatshirt-Doris


The West Coast hip-hop movement has been filled with moments of brilliance, violence and straight up silliness.  Quasimoto was this guy back in the day who got kind of emotional at times.  Perhaps, Drake’s openness framed Earl Sweatshirt’s, yet it feels so much more raw, straightforward and honest.  Earl says, directly, “I’m depressed.”  What?  An MC letting his guard down that low is a pretty new thing to me.  Then, on the other hand there is a song about fucking freckles off a bitch’s face.  So, it is a mixed bag of maturity.  Yet, unlike Drake, who pours out his heart again and again, this kid is still protecting it.  He is only 21 or something and he should protect it.  Yet, this album has some of the best sounding beats I’ve heard in a while (since early Qausimoto/GZA?) and his delivery is priceless. 


Sonny and the Sunsets-Longtime Companion
This album came out in 2012 and he has a new one this year, which is also really good.  I’m spacing the title at this point, but it is really good and has a bit better production value than this one.  I looked up Sonny’s name beforehand, but I want to make you, dear readers look that up yourselves because it is fun to investigate things on your own.  Anyway, this amazing album came up as a recommendation on Spotify.  I listened to it and I thought, this is a divorce album.  It turns out it was.  Yet, what is brilliant about it is that it is as open as open can be.  He spares us from too many personal experiences, which could alienate a shitty episode from listeners.  You know that he and his wife had spilt up, yet he makes that break up as universal as possible.  You feel him, in ways, kind of letting go as he sings, yet you’re not sure if he wants to give her up completely.  His voice only says so much.


Other Stuff:
Galaxie 500- This is Our Music
Townes Van Zandt- Live at the Old Quarter
Bruce Springsteen- Nebraska
Pavement-Slanted & Enchanted
Drake- Nothing Was the Same
Neil Young-Zuma


Thursday, October 03, 2013

Demisenberg


I cannot stop thinking about Walter White.  His downfall is epic.  No, his entire character arc is epic.  I can't recall a man I loved then hated, really hated, then felt some need for redemption for.  I mean, you watched this man create something for nothing.  You watched a man who had no clue what his short life may bring become a different person once they have some power.  Walt is what happens to lottery winners with the exception of working for your money.  But, it came so quickly, and that is the man's demise.

There are times you understand his lies, his cover ups, his desire to not really see what he had become.  And that is why, by the end of fit all, you want the best for Walt.  He pulled it off.  Those initial lacks of responsibility became realities by the end of the show.  There were these moments, and if you add them all up and make a sum of it, you realize so much of the death.....perhaps, all of the death in the show is all Walt's making.  Not his making per se, but his inability to take responsibility for his initial action of grabbing Jesse and making a cook.  I felt as if Walt had been in a sort of denial of everything until New Hampshire.  It hit home for him.  It sucks to be so alone when you haven't been for such a long, long time.  Yet, there is Walt, disconnected and paying someone to just spend time with him.  It is sad, and that is where you really re-connect with him as a character.  I think it is that moment when you forgive him.

Alas, the finale.  He does, somehow, and rather believably, make everything right.  And, at first, after watching the last episode, I thought he took the bullet for Jesse when he hit the remote.  Yet, he did take the bullet for Jesse by staying on top of him as he set of the barrage of gunfire.  The bullet would have hit him and by Walt lying on top of him, he saved Jesse.  Finally, Walt dies with a very Taxi Driver camera set up with the overhead views.  That is also another fitting ending to the show and a great homage to an amazing film.  The camera, like a hawk, spins slowly, so we see the cops.  Oddly enough, you have to ask is Walter White the Travis Bickle of 2013?  Were his actions, after all of its said and done, good for society?  A world without Gus is a better world in a way.  The morality of the show is one that will resonate for a long time.  Walter White is one of the best written and complex characters of our modern era.  He is our Ahab.  He will go down with so many mixed emotions; some good, lots bad.

His death is like reality.  It is conflicted and awful.  It is something you want to forget, yet never can.  Finally, it is a memory.  Those become clouded and odd as time passes.  Yet, you never forget the moment death happens. I will never forget Walt's bloody prints on the canister he last touched.  Nor will I forget his coldness when a child dies in the desert.  Yet, I will mourn his absence: the good, the bad and the ugly parts of it

Wednesday, October 02, 2013

Loves and Hates via haiku

Loves in haiku:

1. Bananas so ripe,
easiest to peel their skin 
And ingest goodness

2. Pittsburgh Pirates won
a meaningful game to go
to the World Series. 

3. Having a new cat
reminds me of my old cat,
color difference. 

Hates in haiku:

1. The essays pour in,
so many grammar errors. 
Teach another day 

2. Caring about things
that don't revolve around me 
are just way too much. 

3. The cat hides a lot,
Looking for him everywhere. 
Still he is hiding.